Will all this weirdness just hurry up and be over?!?!
It’s been just the kids and me for over a year now. I have had hours and hours of therapy. I am moving forward with future opportunities. I am meeting new people. Although I feel strange when I try to fit “me” back into my old world, I still love all of my people.
I’ve read enough to know that I am supposed to allow myself to go through all of the ups and downs. “Don’t fight it. Don’t go looking for relationships. Don’t do this. Don’t do that. Do get out and meet new people. Do try new things. Do this. Do that.” Blah. Blah. Blah.
I am so tired of new things and new people and new experiences. I mean, I’m all about new stuff but I am over it.
I want to drop my son off at school in my pajamas with unbrushed hair and on my way home, stop by a friend’s house for coffee. (Yes, I have done that and yes, she has judged me and yes, she loves me anyway…don’t even ask what shoes I had on! Thank heaven I didn’t have a wreck!) I want to go to my Tuesday morning Bible study. I want to have lunch with the girls. I want to not stress if my kid calls me from school and needs me. I want to not have to worry about how that kid is going to get where he needs to be each day. I want to not feel rushed when making a french toast breakfast in the middle of the week or baking cookies or decorating a birthday cake. I want to clean my house uninterrupted. (No, I don’t. That is a lie…I was just on a roll.)
I am over all the changes!
…even if I am beginning to like some of them! 🙂
P.S. This is supposed to be funny so if you make a big deal out of it, something is wrong with you.
P.P.S. Please just laugh. There are so many bad things happening everywhere; let’s just have a giggle!